IT’S FALL! This is probably my most favorite season of them all and especially in Colorado. It’s crisp and beautiful, the weather is perfect, and people seem to be at their best. I look back at the post I wrote back on my birthday and even since then, so much has changed.
This is super cliche, but as the leaves are in a season of change, I find myself in one, too. Change in my world has always been paired with chaos and instability… but for the first time in a while, I feel a sense stability surrounding this time of change.
I’m not transferring, which means Boulder still has to deal with me for two more years starting next fall.
My internship is going fantastically. I’m learning so much about what social workers and therapists do in the mental health field; investing my time into these kids has been incredibly rewarding. The more and more time that I spend there, the more I feel myself wanting to do social work in this field. Speaking of the time I’m spending there, I’ve decided to stay there for the entire school year. That’s how much I love it.
My job is secure and it’s providing, so I can’t really complain much (I did, however, just apply for a new job, but I won’t say much about that now).
Living with my grandparents has been enjoyable and not filled with the constant, upbeat crazy, crazy, crazy that is Boulder.
I’ve found a church to become a part of, which is something I never thought I would be able to say. I never found a church in Boulder to call “home” and in general, I’ve never really had a place to call “home.” But as soon as I walked into the Edge Church last Sunday, I felt home. I feel like this is where God is calling me… and once school starts back up for me, I can see myself making the drive from Boulder to be with this community. I’ve already started working with the student ministry and it makes my heart so happy to be serving in this way, again. I’ll eventually be getting involved with production and worship, but for now, this is where I need to be.
I’m working on getting back into therapy and on medication for my own mental health. I’m taking a year off from school, so I might as well make the most out of this down time to focus on staying in a healthy place.
I think that pretty much sums up how my life is going. It hasn’t been too crazy. I do miss my life in Boulder, but very slowly, I’m beginning to feel like I’m getting connected down here in Aurora. I was encouraged in church today to keep moving forward, persevere, and remember that God will provide. I’m finally feeling settled and I’m excited to see how the rest of my gap-year plays out.
Things I love right now (clearly, I love lists):
- This haiku by the wonderful Tyler Gregson:
I’m so much stronger
than the tides, than the current
they break upon me.
- Edge Church
- “Son,” Sleeping at Last – “Show me how to struggle gracefully”
and “You Make Me Brave,” Bethel Music – “You call me out beyond the shore into the waves.”
- Lays Wavy Potato Chips… I don’t understand why, but all of a sudden, I’m in love with potato chips.
- The smell of burning firewood on a chilly night