In Genesis, the Lord is speaking with Cain and tells him that sin is crouching at the door and that its desire is great for him (Genesis 4:7). Following that conversation, Cain gave into sin and killed his brother. God then called him a fugitive, a wanderer.
In times when I feel like a fugitive, someone who is fleeing from the Lord, I remember that I am in control of my actions and thoughts. I can choose to direct them towards Him, or I can choose to lust, to envy, and to wander. There’s a sort of freedom that comes with knowing that I am in control of my actions and that God wants nothing more than to teach me how to rule over sin through His word.
I’m reading through Proverbs right now and I love this passage in chapter 4:
Let your eyes look directly forward, and your gaze be straight before you. Ponder (make level) the path of your feet; then all your ways will be sure. Do not swerve to the right or to the left; turn your foot away from evil.
–Proverbs 4:25-27 (ESV)
I was telling a friend the other day that I can picture my foot trying to run towards sin, while my rational mind and self struggle to hold it back.
Hold back your foot from [evil paths].
–Proverbs 1:15 (ESV)
Sometimes the foot wins, which is stupid, because it’s just a foot. It’s just a mind. It’s just a relentlessly stubborn heart. When I feel helpless, the Lord is my rock. When I do mess up, there’s grace upon grace upon grace and His constant ability to forgive, arms open wide, never fails to amazes me.
He’s never walking out of my life. He’s never going to give up on me and while sin is crouching at the door with a great desire for me, He’s by my side with armies of angels and a love that I can’t even comprehend.
Things I love right now:
- “Beautiful Things,” Gungor
- The realization that I can actually learn from the Old Testament (what a concept!)
- Friends (the TV show… even though I love all of my friends, too)
- Red Velvet cupcakes (hint, hint)
- Michael Reaves is in town and it’s kind of the best thing ever